I’m sitting in this dark church with nothing to eat and praying, sitting here and praying for twelve hours. I spent my life as a man for this? I could’ve been a girl and not hidden my identity.  At least it was better than getting married this year. My only duty would be to have a baby. So for now I’ll sit here and pray.

            What if someone finds out my secret. If they did there’s no telling what they would do. They could imprison me or burn me at the stake. I don’t think mother and father could go on without me. Father has been talking nonsense lately and he is getting very old.  I want to be there for him if he’s sick. The way I said goodbye to mother and father keeps running through my mind. Just a quick farewell, I didn’t even look back.  That might be the last time I will ever see them.

    There is nothing between me and becoming a knight accept the priest blessing my sword and the king performing the ceremony. I’m almost free to be a knight and one will judge me after that. If I have to be a man to be free from the image of society, I will be.