Sunrise to sunset, on the field. Everytime I pull my hoe I can feel my soul diminishing into the hand of my white masters, the Cater family. I feel the sun burning my skin with every ray. I hear tobacco leaves shaking and dancing as my fellow slaves and I work on the field. I see tobacco stretching to as far as my eyes can see. I look at my outfit. I see a dirty, scratched up white shirt filled with memories. Memories of being whipped, screamed at, beaten. Blood stretched against my back. I wear dark disgusting pants. And my feet, shoeless, rubbing against the swampy ground of the plantation. I look at my hands and see my skin, black as the pupil in my eye. I wonder to myself, “when will this end? When will people like me break free of our white masters’ hands? Will it be my son, or my son’s son, or my son’s son’s son that will experience a better life?” I look around and see a field full of destroyed souls. I remember how it was back in Angola. When people like me weren’t tortured because of their skin. When people had the freedom to live their own life. I slow down and pray to God, hoping for a chance. A chance to for me to live for me and not for a white man’s needs.
“Jemmy!” screams my master. Red fear rushing through my blood as all of my bones stiffens. My body freezes as my tears continue to roll down my cheeks. Rubbing against my rough face.
“Yes Mr. Cater.”
“Why the hell are you slowing down?” wonders my masters. He stands straight as a board. He wears a puffy outfit with layers of clothing. His veins popping out of his pale skin. And his silver white wig curling down his neck.
“You better not be dreaming agains!”
“Sorry Mr. Cater. It was just for a while, it will never…”
“You know negroes aren’t supposed to be free. Stop clouding your mind with unrealistic foolish fantasies! Look.” My master stomps towards me with a frown stretching along his face. His shiny shoes splashing mud against my strong legs. He picks up my hoe and shoves it into a tobacco leaf.
“This hoe and these leaves are all you have to worry about!” His scream shoots spit all over my face. “Now stop have stupid dreams of negroes, like you, being released.”
Today my master was being nice. Usually the family that owns me would whip, beat or throw objects at me. And every time they do so I have to stand their, absorbing all of their anger.
In the middle of the night, while my masters aren’t watching, us slaves gather around in a circle. We light the night with our torches. Every night we would discuss how we could escape. I would always lead these meetings since, unlike the other slaves, I was educated by my masters. We have developed a plan that would kill our and many other slave owners.
“See these?” I say to rows of twenty sweaty, beat up faces. Their expressions glow from the light emitted from our touches. Light sparkling of their sweat. They all stare at the tools in my rough hands; a hoe and a pitch fork.
“To the white men these are simple tools only to be used for the field. But these can be more. We can be more. We can use these tools as weapons to fight back.” I sit back down on the log behind me to take a couple of deep breathes.
“They took to much from us. And I ain’t ever gonna let them take anymore.”
We all gather around the plantation manor. We assumed everyone in their was asleep. Each of us with a glowing torches in our hands. One of the slaves walk to me. I can see the fear dancing in his eyes.
“What if we fail?” He says. “What if this is all useless? What if they defeat us. What if we…die? I mean…what if…this is all for nothing?”
He look up at our master’s mansion. Its white walls glowing with the orange from our torches in this dark night. Everyone preparing to burn down this building and every rotten soul in it.
“You see…I don’t care if we live or die. I don’t care if the white men live or die. I don’t care if the take our heads and hang them on sticks ’cause I know that’s what’s gonna happen. But you don’t understand. The fight isn’t if we slaughter every white man on earth or not. It isn’t if every white men suffers for every time they enslaved one of us or not. The fight is if we get what we deserve or not. Even if we die this night, as long as I know that some day people like us will get what we were never able to have then I’m fine.”
My group starts throwing torches at the manor. The butt of the building glowing with fire.
“And what is that?” asks the slave.
I think about the journey ahead of us. I think of the lives behind us. I think about all the struggle we’ve been through. I think about every tear that dropped from our eyes. I think of all we ever asked for.
“Freedom.”