The First Time I……
The feeling of doing something the first time can be mind numbing. It would be that emotion or action because you have no idea what you’re about to get yourself into. Also, you could get your feelings hurt. For example, if you’re trying to make friends with someone you could get rejected because the person could just not try whatsoever to socialize and walk away. Also, you can feel nervous, excited, embarrassed, tender, awkward, and like you are about to throw up. Your body reacts to things that could hold you back, choosing to control what you do.
I remember meeting my best friend Ava J for the first time in the fours class. Having a friend there was helpful when trying something new. She and I liked to go to the park and run around in her house. Another time we went to my house and we would go on my big terrace to put sprinklers on and run around in the hot, warm, and sunny days. One thing that I won’t forget is when we took dance classes together. I was the lead in the dance and she was the second. When it was the end of the semester of the dance class when we performed for our parents, I remember we went on this big stage in a different building and it was a real full-on professional show. We both had these cute adorable costumes!
When Ava J and I hung out for the first time I felt like I had a real best friend that I would keep until we grew up. In the beginning, Ava J and I weren’t shy at all we just jumped to being friends like we knew each other already for a long time. I remember that we would always go to the park even if it was cold or hot out like we were in the desert. We would always play tag and when I was it I would always tag her! Almost every time we hung out we were being active. I was also, nervous because I didn’t know what might happen to our friendship. It was a little overwhelming, exciting, proud, and apprehensive. Ava J and I are still really tight best friends like we were when we were younger but, even more, stronger. Our Friendship is like a coconut growing on a tree from the beginning to the end. Growing up to be a big strong tree like my friendship with Ava J. We don’t consider ourselves friends anymore, though, we consider each other as sisters.
When I tried basketball for the first time the emotions I was feeling were, nervous, thankful, lost, lonely, confident, misplaced, curious, involved, confused, free, welcoming, present, and much more. I especially felt misplaced for sure because back then I was a soccer player that breathed, thought, felt, and wore soccer. Basketball was a whole different sport for me to take on. I was also really confused why I was there with my feet not on my own “territory”. Instead of turf under my feet, I switched to a wooden gym floor that I stood on. “Curious.” I wanted to know what was going to happen next. I wanted to know what we were exactly doing.
Recently, I tried a new sport for the first time. We had our conferences before the fifth and sixth-grade intramural basketball started. My advisor, Larry talked to me about Intramurals and my reaction to basketball was like, “Uh Uh. Uh Uh, I am not going to like it and I know it.” I said . But, I decided to just try it and see if I would like it. One week into intramural basketball we made teams of sixth and fifth graders, I was put on the Blue Team. The Blue Team apparently was the team that has never lost in 5 years. I was really excited as I went to practices on Thursdays. I felt like I was apart of something that was going to turn out special for me. The only other thing that I felt like I was a part of and that turned out special for me was my Soccer Team. Practices ran the same every time. We did lay up lines and then at the end we played a basketball game with the other team that was practicing on Thursday which was the Black Team. At the end of intramural basketball when It was over we made it to the finals and won!
When I tried basketball for the first time the emotions I was feeling were, nervous, thankful, lost, lonely, confident, misplaced, curious, involved, confused, free, welcoming, present, and much more. I especially felt misplaced for sure because back then I was a soccer player that breathed, thought, felt, and wore soccer. Basketball was a whole different sport for me to take on. I was also really confused why I was there with my feet not on my own “territory”. Instead of turf under my feet, I switched to a wooden gym floor that I stood on. “Curious.” I wanted to know what was going to happen next. I wanted to know what we were exactly doing.
When you have done the thing the first time, I usually feel proud of myself because I just did something that I haven’t done before. Also, I might have been scared and I could feel relieved because I just went for it! The way I feel now when something new happens is I just process an idea through my mind that makes me not nervous and I take the initiative. When I was younger I always got a big amount of nerve in me and work myself up. Then at the end, I wouldn’t be able to do the thing I was going to try for the first time. Something I’ve learned about myself when I try new things is that I will always feel nervous but, always will go ahead and try at least. Also, for me, it always helps to have a friend by my side. But, usually I do it all by myself and I feel more proud than doing it with a friend!
