Blue’s Internal Monologue…

I’m waking up with a concerned feeling about today. I have to take off my clothes in front of a man to bathe so I can wash all my sins! I’ve waited 14 years and 2 days for this day to come. I think to myself, I can’t hold back. I feel very hesitant because if they find out that I’m a woman what will happen?! My dream of becoming a knight could be crushed because of one bad move I do. I tell myself again,” I can’t hold back I can’t hold back, no bad incidents!” I have to prove to the king that I can last 24 hours without eating, pray all day by myself in a quiet room but, on top of that I have the feeling of my stomach being punched a thousand of times because I don’t think I’ll able to take on the steps of becoming a knight.    

I start to put on my armor and begin to feel the strong self I am. I start to walk to my first stop of becoming a knight. I feel very self concerned so It makes me walk in an awkward way, almost as though I’m about to fall! I see someone out of the corner of my eye and tweak my back into a straight upright position  and walk manly and confident. I arrive where I have to bathe all my sins off. The man that’s there says, “ Start to take off your clothes in the corner and get into the hot herbal bath we have prepared for you.” my face suddenly turns to the color red. I take a deep breath and tell him “May I please have privacy?” He looks at me for a second and replies “No, I can’t leave to room for purposes the king has given me, now go ahead you are losing time!!” he shouts at me. I start with my chest plate and in 3 minutes I got all of my armor except the underpart where I am nervous to take off. I stare at the ground for 5 minutes with a shout “Come on young lad!” yelling at me. I take it off and I see the man look at me in a weird way and he follows up with a concerned comment…..