As noted in past posts I had to manage my expectations to better my project efficiency. This meant that I couldn’t really pursue lithography in the way that I wanted to. I had originally really wanted to focus on printmaking but that proved challenging given it was such a meticulous process. I was painting as well which could also be described as detail-oriented. I had to plan and constantly think about my next move and that surprisingly took up a lot of my time. In addition, I had planned on taking classes for lithography but given all that I said previously that wasn’t really able to happen. Other than the printmaking challenge I was able to meet all my other expectations perfectly. I was able to complete two-panel paintings and in addition, I was able to also create and uncover film that helped contribute to my project’s outcome. I not only was able to create process boards that I will be presenting in my gallery, but I was also able to use childhood photos and memories to create a more personal message through my art. I experienced challenges that not only concerned printmaking but also my process. My essential focus in this process was to put more emphasis on conscious choice and planning when painting. Although I expected it to be a challenge, it was also a long-term benefit. I was not only able to figure out how to work the most efficiently but also learned when to step away. I didn’t expect that part of conscious choice-making would also be the decision to step away when necessary. This has proven to be an extremely important learning moment as art is not something you can force or necessarily explain, so when it becomes confusing or frustrating sometimes you need to step away and focus on something else.

Because I had switched my project directly to a simpler and more well-known route I ended up taking not necessarily fewer risks but rather different kinds. Rather than having to figure out lithography, I was having to pay more attention to my color choices and additional art pieces. I also found myself taking risks outside of my paintings and in my seminars. 

I attended a sewing seminar and although I was always interested the detail work and patience always intimidated me. Yet during this project, I found that I was attempting to create a tote bag from scratch. I was not only finding a newfound passion for sewing but also the ability to work threw the problems that arose. The distraction of a new and different project also helped me to give space to my painting which, as aforementioned, is crucial for painting. I was able to realize that personally, I am more efficient and productive when I have multiple pursuits. I am able to give space to one when it becomes overwhelming and uncomfortable which allows me to not overdo or make rash decisions. This project has allowed me to see this on a larger scale given that we had 6 weeks to complete the project rather than an assignment that may be due in a couple of days. 

Before my senior project, my sense of self has always been something that I knew would grow when given different circumstances. Being able to have this time to not only focus on my project but also on my personal preferences regarding time management has allowed me to realize what I need in a work environment. Working through the challenges not in a classroom setting but rather on my own also allowed me to advance my problem-solving skills as I didn’t have anyone to really ask for the answers or lead me to the answers. I was able to sit and ponder what my next step or move was and even further, think about why I was making those decisions. Was it because I was impatient? Or do I actually think using this technique or making that mark was necessary to the overall painting?

When considering this project in a larger scope I think that it has made me value taking time to do what I love. I haven’t ever really had time to only focus on painting for an extended period of time during the year like this and the opportunity has shifted my initial feelings towards it. 

I have found it to be more rewarding than expected and because of that, I believe that I will continue to try and replicate this experience as much as possible throughout my life. I am a little disappointed I wasn’t able to fully dive into lithography as that has been a major goal of mine but I will just continue to pursue it either through classes or in another space where I have the time. I have learned that often it’s easy to bite off more than you can chew with projects like these. Instead of regretting not being able to do it all I have found it more rewarding to appreciate what I have been able to accomplish. 

Finally, I would just like my audience viewing my project to understand that the work does not always need one definition. I would like my work to reflect your experiences or open your mind to new ones. This allows for art to mean something to everyone.